Truth or Dare
The truth of the matter is: I have not been operating in a truly happy state of mind. I have had several temporary moments of happiness, but true genuine happiness has escaped me recently. I am almost certain that I may have been depressed and not known – or recognized – that I was going through that.
I was comfortable being misunderstood, undervalued and disrespected. I gave up on my dreams to help someone else fulfill theirs. The most poisonous of relationships, eating away at my potential, my love and my good intentions giving me an unknown or rather unrecognizable me. A complete façade.
The only way you realize you are in a bad relationship, one that can damage you, is when you are no longer in it. From the outside looking in, you’ll probably want to know what the hell you were doing in it in the first place and why you didn’t get out sooner. When you’re in there, you can’t see it. You’ll stand for the bullshit, you’ll defend the relationship, you will kick and scream at anyone who disrespects and you’ll probably close yourself off from any feedback or criticism. This can be fatal. This can kill joy, hope, expectations, determination, self-worth, belief, love, motivation, and you’ll be left with nothing, but a shell of yourself.
Denial: Nah, this can’t be going on. This can’t be happening. Not to me. They would never do that. They would never say that. I’m sure that was a mistake. (Looking for the best in them)
Anger: That comes with the Realization that yes, it was going on. It did happen and is happening. They are doing and saying what you thought they weren’t. Mistake my ass.
Sad: Tears or anger, resentment, self-pity and remorse.
Acceptance: This is what it is. This is where you stand in the midst of this new knowledge and this is what I’m doing now. Moving on is not optional.
Despite what anyone says, keep YOUR goals, dreams and hopes at the forefront of your priorities. At the end of it all, you are truly all you have. This business is tough and can be even tougher if you are sitting around not working on your dream. Making your desire a reality should be what you’re working on.
Please do not forget to be a good human and please keep in mind that you are not the only inhabitant of the planet.
I dare myself to live my best life after coming out of such toxicity and negative vibes. My shoulders and my head are eased a little as I resurrect my dream.
Dare to join? #letsgetit #underconstruction